stop it. For godsakes. Why do you have to come on this trip? It's more important to me than it is to you. Why are you insisting on taking this trip. Am I going to have to do what you would do? Stamp and scream at you that I want time alone with my spouse?
UGH, no, instead you know in the end I will say if you meet me in Kamloops, we will pick you up.
In the end it will work better if she is there, she knows the people, and knows how to talk to them.
It's just a point, why do you think that your kids are all made of money? Why are your kids having to pay for your lifestyle to begin with?
Then I have kim on the other end going 'I don't to go pick up your mom, this is our vacation'.
they do love me. I got cake and a card today. MMM.... lovely fruit flan. Was scrumptious.
WTF. Piss off. How many times do I have to repeat to you 'I DONT' HAVE MONEY' befeore you realize that I can't come pick you up?
GOD, just finished talking to mom, trying to give her a way out, saying 'hey with Ralph just gettng out of the hospital, figured you would want to stay home with him', I dont' have the cash'. And she is still INSISTING that I come pick her up and take her to Mt.Curry with me.
SSSSCCCCCCCCCRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMM
Then she says to me 'I thought it would go over better if it was just me and you that made the trip'. LWTF, am I supposed to just leave my spouse? We get so little time together as it is now you want me to leave him behind on 'our' vacation?
She thought we were going on Sep 11? Don' know where she got that from. Then she says 'do you want me to ask ronnie if she will stay till we get back? I can wait in Barrier on Sunday for you to pick me up.'
Like picking her up in Barrier is any better than Littlefort. :P.
BLAH.
I don't know how we is going to manage holidays and get bills paid, but we shall do our best.
I need to make the trip to Mt.Curry and get a couple of affidavits signed so that I can be a real Indian.
Yes that's what I want for me birthday, to be considered a first nations person by the government. I have gone years without being considered a 'status native', it's now time for them to acknowledge that I am an native.
It may take a day or two to visit people in that area, I will have to be prepared to meet all kinds of relatives, has to do this without mom. The original plan was to take her with, but with Ralph just getting out of the hospital, and lack of funds, there is no way that that will be happening.
Joyce had already put me in contact with Sissy (aka Rosalind Sam) who is a relative of Cornelius Sam (mom's bio-father). I am hoping that she is an elder of the community, that way it will make it easier to get some paperwork signed.
This will mean that I will be a band member of Mt, Curry, with all kinds of relations in D'Arcy.
I should look up Connie whilst in the area.
Was talking to Bill one evening and I mentioned the status thing, and he said oh, I figured you would pave the way and I would ride on your coattails. I mentioned that it will cost money, I dont' know how much it cost to get affidavits registered, I am assuming at least 50 bux a piece, never mind the traveling costs.
I wonder if ..........................
I don't know how we is going to manage holidays and get bills paid, but we shall do our best.
I need to make the trip to Mt.Curry and get a couple of affidavits signed so that I can be a real Indian.
Yes that's what I want for me birthday, to be considered a first nations person by the government. I have gone years without being considered a 'status native', it's now time for them to acknowledge that I am an native.
It may take a day or two to visit people in that area, I will have to be prepared to meet all kinds of relatives, has to do this without mom. The original plan was to take her with, but with Ralph just getting out of the hospital, and lack of funds, there is no way that that will be happening.
Joyce had already put me in contact with Sissy (aka Rosalind Sam) who is a relative of Cornelius Sam (mom's bio-father). I am hoping that she is an elder of the community, that way it will make it easier to get some paperwork signed.
This will mean that I will be a band member of Mt, Curry, with all kinds of relations in D'Arcy.
I should look up Connie whilst in the area.
Was talking to Bill one evening and I mentioned the status thing, and he said oh, I figured you would pave the way and I would ride on your coattails. I mentioned that it will cost money, I dont' know how much it cost to get affidavits registered, I am assuming at least 50 bux a piece, never mind the traveling costs.
I wonder if ..........................
I am chalking yesterdays blues down to birthday reflections, memories of birthdays past, specifically the operation I had. Sadness at things that I think I should have accomplished by now.
Today, it's forward ho. Damn the torpedos and get out of my way.
(Guess we are allowed to have a really low day at least a couple of times a year)
shook it off. Where are these moments coming from? At least they is moments and not days. Maybe it's just acknowledging it and saying hey 'I feel sad' and then it goes away.
blah, or should it be birthday blues? Why does this attack come? Why do I feel this way?
I was thinking on the drive to work this morning, do I have feelings? Yes I must because I do cry. Is it that I notice the negative feelings more than I notice the other feelings? I think I get to a point that I shut down for self preservation.
My heart doesn't feel like it 'swells' with love.
I don't describe things as 'beautiful'.
Why do these descriptive words not come to mind? It perplexes me.
Right now I just want to lay down and cry. I want to crawl into a hole and have no one bug me. WTF is going on? I don't know, I search and search and can't put a finger on it.
LOL, now if I don't get a birthday cake tomorrow I will be somewhat upset. Yesterday they had a cake for 2 other people's whose birthday's have passed. They both got a card and a cake.
So, yes, if they don't have a cake and card for me tomorrow..... well..... hmmfff
my karma must suck. :P. What did I do? How do I change it?
